The Journey of “Hope”

Brittany's Birthmom BlogThe Journey of “Hope”

I had dreamed of being a mother since I was a child. I always knew deep down I would be good at it and I’d love every moment of motherhood. The day I found out I was pregnant with baby Hope, I had different feelings than when I was pregnant with my first two children. This unplanned pregnancy was a surprise, as I was in an uncommon situation. As time passed and my belly grew, I began to weigh the option of adoption. While contemplating this, I asked myself a lot of questions. The question that always came back around was, “Is this best for the baby? This life, I mean.” When I could not answer that with a confident “YES”, I knew then that adoption was the right answer for me and my baby. I really wanted Hope to have more than I could ever give her. Not only that, but I began to feel selfish as I was already raising two little boys in a broken home. There are couples out there trying to conceive for years and years with no luck and I knew in my heart that I wanted to bless a couple in that way. That is exactly what I did. I gave a family something they longed for, and I became part of God’s plan for them. Through prayer and God’s strength, I gave them Hope.

I picked up the local newspaper and saw the ad for ANA Adoptions. I called and Andrea answered, and her voice so was calm and sweet. I was so afraid to speak, but once I did, I knew I would be forever grateful for what she shared with me – a plan for me and my child. She was so patient with all of my questions, and immediately offered to get things started. After we hung up that night, I had doubts that all of it was too good to be true. A part of me thought it may have been a scam, and that I would not get any profiles of adoptive parents in the mail. The very next morning, sure enough, my packet came! I couldn’t believe it! In the package was a personalized letter from Andie, and profiles of all the parents I could choose from. They were all so beautiful in their own way. I spent the entire day reading through these mini books of possible parents. Knowing that at that very moment I was looking at “the family” just made me full of joy. Once I picked the family, and had my first conversation with them on the phone, my heart was filled with so much peace, more peace than I had felt in quite some time. Bill and Joan were just so perfect. They were as perfect for me, as I was for them. And, much more importantly, they were perfect for Hope!

Over the next few months our relationship blossomed into so much more. Joan and I talked on the phone a few times a week, as well as exchanged text messages almost daily. What I had hoped for in parents for my child, I got with them and so much more. They shared the same moral values and beliefs as me. We laughed a lot, and had a great time during each and every conversation. I looked forward to our talks, and couldn’t wait to meet for the reason that had brought us together in the first place.

This is just the start. Stay tuned for my full story, including sharing my daughter’s delivery with her new family, saying goodbye when they left for their home, her first year of updates and pictures and our reunion since.

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